Loss of a friendship

 I've been kinda side-sad lately, so I brought it into focus and realize I feel like I'm mourning the loss of a friend, that is wasn't real on the other end, but almost more that they lost my close true friendship. I'm freaking amazing, loyal, honest, and I'll love them and look out for their best interests... if you need something, I'll be there in whatever it is that *YOU* need (you may have to tell me sometimes what that is, but once I know, I'll provide it if I can), I'll try to figure out your love language or straight up ask, so that you always feel loved by me in the way *you* need... I thought I had trust issues until I had my eyes opened, now I see so many more broken people, some like a broken picture frame, some like shards of glass, some still like dust in the winds, they lost themselves and it seems impossible to find the pieces. I will always wish people well, even the ones who've hurt me the most. I learned long ago to look at things from "their point of view" and I became far more forgiving and understanding of people's choices, albeit some tragic... I forgive them because I see into their broken souls and realize they were never capable of sharing a true friendship with me, they need to mend their broken souls first before they can ever notice someone else's needs and not only their own... but I will never trust them with my heart again...