I told the man I learned to love and fell into caring about that I wanted to date him, he said yes after telling me like four times it's really hard, he didn't know if I wanted to do that. I told him we'd already been doing it since June... he said yes, then said in a low tone, I need to call him more. The next day I felt like maybe he really didn't want to commit, so I let him go telling him that I really did want him, I wanted more than dating even, he calmly listened to everything and replied sometimes. I felt loved with our conversations on the way to the airport... but like now, it's been two days I sent random hello texts and such, even a Merry Christmas, but I haven't heard anything from him... but he's checking into FB or FB Chat every hour or so today :( and it's breaking my heart to think he's answering other people, but not me. Am I so incredibly boring to people? I don't know... or I hurt him so badly the last few months that he's paying me back? he did that once before when we first met... either way, I've been crying it hurts so badly to feel ignored. I need to talk to him about it, but not via text, obviously...
I'm hurting so badly... I just want to feel truly cared about and be able to talk back and forth daily via text and phonecall.
